6.30.2012

Date Knight with my little knight in shining armor

We had a Mother & Son date tonight at Chick Fil A and had such a blast. Ed and his team did a great job turning the store into a castle and making a great night for all the kids and moms!

6.21.2012

Life and Happenings of Late

The cave, a little corner of our master bedroom where Lincoln will sleep, has begun to take shape....very old chewed up crib has been put up and now I just have to figure out how to make things look nice, fresh and fun for this new babe....not that he will care in the least....just don't ever want him to feel his life is a set of "hand me downs" from the others. Want him to know he's important and special in his own way too.

With school out and a lot of rain we've been keeping to ourselves in doors more and more. It's a weird change of pace for me as I'm used to running around all the time, but I have to admit I am kind of enjoying our playful days at home and longer nap times.

Bible study at church is going well....seems like I am struggling to do the homework more this go around. The content is great and I learn a lot out of it each time, but I miss my Beth Moore homework. Can I say, I struggle with change.

Tomorrow I have to clean the house and we have a realtor coming to list the house on the market for us....crazy that this thought we had months ago is actually coming to pass now.....not sure what is in store for us in the next few months, but this control crazy mama is quite content resting in the peace I have right now.

MJD amazes me each day with his sweetness and kindness, more so to the baby in me than his fidgety toddler brother, but I love watching him.

LAD is crazy smart! I swear he scares me sometimes with the way he processes things through and responds, even without words. He certainly will be a force to reckon with one day!

6.20.2012

Today's Box

Still 6 weeks or more away from VPK...but a box came today. It made us both happy :)

We love some PBK happiness! Especially the merger of Batman and personalization!

6.15.2012

I know He cares

About the little details of my life....the little things that touch my heart....After all the potential excitement everyone had about the grande finale possibly being our little girl and then learning we were expecting another boy I heard a lot of I was so sure it was a girl and I am sorry you won't get your princess.

Well I am embracing this world of boys...mud, trucks, noise and superheroes! But superhero gear is EXPENSIVE!!!! So when on a fluke I walk into Old Navy and peek into the boy clearance and discover all the superhero stuff on clearance, plus an extra 30% off on top and I have a rewards coupon I can use with me I know that was all His doing to remind me to embrace this time with my little men, savor each second of their precious lives and bring on the superhero power!

6.13.2012

Why can't they

Stay 4 and fun and honest like this forever.....

"I need a pencil mommy!"

Give him a pencil.....he goes for a ruler....

"I have a very important job mommy!"

"Really? What is that?"

"I build things."

"You mean a contractor like Bob the Builder? Or an engineer like Daddy?"

"Both. I have to go to work and build things. I have a very important work."

Melts my heart how he tries to be so big some days and some days he is sill so little.

6.10.2012

Late night confessions

Every good and perfect gift is from above. James 1:17

I am anxious and hesitant as the days approach our ultrasound this week. It seems crazy to think I am already 18 weeks pregnant with my grande finale and almost half way through our pregnancy! Eek.

We decided to go ahead and do a reveal party.....I feel like this baby needs to be celebrated....so after the ultrasound we invited friends and family over for that night to learn if we are to have a little man or little miss :)

This pregnancy has been so incredibly completely different than the last two that everyone keeps saying it is a girl. I have wanted to have a girl so badly in the past that while my head says it is probably a girl my heart is quite okay with another little man in my life.

Part of me totally doesn't even want to know at all! Crazy, I know. Especially from this OCD, type A, compulsive planner and organizer! But I am just feeling so at peace and falling in love with this baby that it really makes no difference anymore on gender.

To be honest, I am a bit fearful.... Frightened maybe something will go wrong this time around, that I might lose this sweet one, that after all the trauma and tears and sweet surrender that something might tear us apart. Ridiculous I know, but it is there, lurking in a corner of my heart. I suppose I will just keep praying. Maybe it is just because at this stage and age in my life I am more aware of suffering and loss, or maybe because so many in my world have so recently suffered such loss that I find it hard to accept that I might have such happiness again.

6.09.2012

Build a Car.....

So while on vacation with the in laws we went to Downtown Disney....of course out favorite place Lego World was stop # 1 and we got rained in for a while.....then in such a random stop we went to Team Mickey. Thinking no big deal we began to look around and wait for the posse to catch up.....then he (Daddy nonetheless) spotted evey boys dream place!
Just like Build A Bear but building your own car instead!!!! The price tags were a little outside of my comfort range and Nena only gave each boy $20 for play money so we said no and walked out.
I could literally see my man's wheels in his head turning trying to come up with a way to make it work! We ended up back in the store again and thought we would just buy one with no radio control until Tim found an inexpensive model with simple yet cool stock items so MJD could add a remote control. If both boys bought it together and "shared" then they could afford it.... Oi vey!
I will say MJD did love the experience and he adores his car. Even promised to not ask for anything till his birthday. We shall see.....more than anything I think Tim likes playing with it with the boys :)

6.05.2012

Moments

I don't always pause and allow the moment to happen.....I am glad it happened today while we were in the car.

MJD: When you die you go to heaven?

Me: Yes if you believe in Jesus and ask him to live in your heart.

MJD: If you don't go to heaven you go to hell?

Me: Yes

MJD: Are there benches?

Me: In hell? I don't know baby. But mommy won't be there, I am going to heaven.

MJD: Because you are a good person and love Jesus.

Me: Well mommy isn't always a good person. But I asked Jesus in my heart. Do you know how to do that?

MJD: Jesus makes your heart not black anymore?

Me: Yes, I told Jesus I am sorry for my sin, when I do bad things, and He came in my heart.

MJD: When you do bad things you say sorry to Jesus and he comes back in?

Me: Well once you ask him in your heart he never leaves, but when you do something bad you make him sad, so you have to say sorry and ask for help to be good.

MJD closes his eyes and I hear him mumble something of a prayer in the back seat....all I catch is "sorry" and "make my heart not black"

I don't quite know what all he processes and understands at this tender age of 4.....I want to make sure I don't push what isn't ready yet.....something is brewing.....I want him to have a relationship more than a religion to grow up in.....Lord, lead this so I don't screw him up!