A lot of my girlfriends have had baby fever and now several moms in our group on on their way to baby number 2. It got me thinking the past week as I've been making baby shower presents, am I ready for baby number 2, do I even want another one?
I started my typical pros and cons list. Age spacing, timing, money, etc. And while I could probably list a slew of reason why I should or shouldn't have another child anytime soon.
Then Mason came charging into the room to sit on my lap and sew, or rather to pull the cool thread thing off the stick and screw up my perfect line of stitches. It got me thinking to how much I love just spending time with him alone. Tim's been busy with several church and work obligations the past couple weeks and Mason and I have had our share of Mommy and Mason nights. It's been such a pleasure to have time to just share together and memories for me to hold on to. I know I'm never going to get this time back with him, and while he won't remember these days, I will. The pictures will tell the stories. And as I scolded Mason about the thread and we went into the bathroom for a bath I realized I'm just not ready to share. I'm not ready to give up my time alone with Mason. It wouldn't be fair to him or to me or another baby.
Maybe things would be different if I stayed home full time or business was better and we had more money, or if health issues required another pregnancy sooner than later. But for now I'm just happy to share my time with my little man.
I'm quite happy for all my girlfriend embarking into Mommyhood of more than one, but it's not for me, at least not quite yet. I think I'll get to the place where I can't wait to have another baby, but I'm sure I have to passionately want another baby before I make that kind of commitment for our family. I love watching Mason learn and grow in front of me each day. Right now I'm just loving our family as just the 3 of us.
