Tent Time

Mason's new thing is taking mine or Tim's hand and leading us around to where he wants to go or to what he wants us to get for him. So the other night I was led to the tent. Such little things make the little guy so happy. It would have been easy to tell him no, Mommy doesn't feel like sitting on top of the toys and squishing into the tent, but his face was so sincere in his asking, how could I possibly say no.

What fun it was anyway. We squished ourselves in and all the toys he wanted and then just played in the stuffy tent. But how happy he was when he went to bed and Mommy had played with him in his little world of toys. Playing together is so much fun :)

Family Photo

We went to the Florida Aquarium a few weeks ago with the Hernandez family. What a fun trip. I think I blogged about it here or on Mason's page, but either way my camera died at the last leg of the trip and we never got a family picture.

Those are hard to get these days as one of us is chasing Mason and the other one (usually me) is snapping away with the camera to take 50 shots and hope for one good one.

So here's a family photo from the day. It's as good as we can get at this age with him.

Lasagna, Chocolate Pudding and Friends

I was tired after work today. That tired that never seems to go away because you only rest enough to make it through the day and then you're tired again.

I beat the boys home after work today and started dinner. Not sure what possessed me to call Molly and Mark over for dinner, but before I knew it I was on the phone and the invitation opened. What a blessing it was. Besides the fact that there was enough lasagna to go around, Mason and Jonas had a blast playing, eating pudding and taking a bath together.

God is so very good at putting the right people in my life when I absolutely need them. What a wonderful evening of making a mess with toys, talking to other another Christian couple and just making friends.

God is just so kind :)

Just rambling about myself and my today

Ever feel like things are changing and you're not sure what's ahead, but it's exciting? That's where I'm at now. I'm determined to be positive about the things I have to do. I'm so tired of living in a world full of obligations. I've decided that I'm only going to live in a world of passion and desire.

So things have changed in our home. Priorities shifted and rearranged.

The Drumm home has stopped worrying about pleasing others all the time and trying to make things perfect and we're living with take out nights and tickles in bed all the time. We've shifted from a clean and perfect home all the time to some slightly messy floors and toys scattered everywhere because we've played with everything. I'm letting go of having to get things done super quickly and holding on the the precious moments I have when Mason is awake and playing.

I still hate working, but I'm going to do a great job at my job because my family needs that from me. We're praying more, playing more and finding more time for the things that matter in life. No more worrying about bills and payments, we're staying on budget and enjoying the simple pleasures in life. After all, it's just money.

We're saying goodbye to the things we don't have a desire to do, and opening our hearts to new adventures and paths God may have for us. We're letting go of fears and expanding our faith, one day at a time.

When all is said and done, we all die. Our possessions will rot away and we take nothing with us. So for today, I'm going to make it the best day I can. I'm not worrying about what I can't control, but I'm going to shape what I can, myself.

So work is started, I'm getting in the swing of things, I'm tired and the house still isn't totally completely spotless, but I had a great night with family and that's all that really matters.

Heartbroken....

My heart's broken tonight, because while I try not to live in the past or the future, I know tomorrow is going to be a rough day. I know the God of my tomorrow will get me through and help me thrive in my circumstances, but it doesn't always seem to make the pain of the knowing less bearable.
I have to start work again tomorrow, which means I have to leave Mason. I know he'll be cared for, happy, safe and have fun. But at the same time I fear how he'll react. He's so little and he doesn't understand why Mommy has to go or what is happening. I hate that summer has to come to an end and that I have to return to work.
Yet at the same time I am grateful for the job and the ability to provide for my family. There are so many people out there without work, or even worse, the ability to work without the desire, that I must be grateful for the blessing of a job that provides my family with food and necessities.
I'm just sad to be in a position where I have to leave my little man. I love him so dearly and just want to spend time with him. But at the same time I love him so dearly that I'm willing to put my wants beside and do everything in my able body to provide and protect for him.
Tomorrow is going to be rough. Thank God He'll be there to walk me through it.